Pathetic

Sometimes I wonder if I could screw up any more? Honestly, I try so hard to "do the right thing," often at the cost of my own happiness or comfort. This time has been difficult because I'm dealing with too many emotions and situations and it just went past my comfort level. I'm usually pretty good at being "unflappable" (as my boss calls me) but my defenses broke down this time. Too much information, too vulnerable. Me being whiney and pathetic. Inevitably, it seems I manage to make a mess of things anyway. Among other issues, I've probably alienated, hopefully only temporarily, a couple of friends that I care very much about.